ripped excerpt one
I felt a little hope for the first time since everything happened. The numbness was lifted a little and I felt a little more functional after our talk. I was in no way one hundred percent me again, and I doubted I would be for a very long time. But this was progress. Baby steps. My heart was still heavy and the mere thought of either Justin or Marcus brought tears to my eyes and pain in my heart. But I had hope that one day it wouldn’t hurt this bad.
Maybe, just maybe, one day, it wouldn’t hurt at all.
ripped excerpt two
“You know how you feel right now? That fear deep down inside you? Hold onto that. And just know that it’s that much worse for me,” she sniffed. “I know what you’re afraid of. You’re afraid you’ll choose her over me. And you might. And that possibility scares the hell out of me too! But do you know what would be worse? If you don’t do this, if you just stay with me, I will always wonder if you feel like you’re missing something. I will always worry that I won’t be enough for you. I won’t be able to help but wonder if every time you look at me, you’ll be seeing her. Or every time we touch, you’ll be touching her. Every time we kiss, every time we make love, she will always be there in the back of your mind. You’ll have questions and concerns that only she can answer or comfort you about. I cannot live like that, Marcus. You can’t ask that of me.”